forever hunting
amongst barren grounds
a craving consciousness,
never satiated
searching for
another dose of dopamine
and spending another night
asleep with the lights on
rinse,
repeat
until you run out of breath
rhetorical solipsism
forever hunting
amongst barren grounds
a craving consciousness,
never satiated
searching for
another dose of dopamine
and spending another night
asleep with the lights on
rinse,
repeat
until you run out of breath
turn to me
see through these eyes
into the part of me
that has lain dormant
for so
very
long
it hides itself well
but I’m asking you
pleading
to not give up
the directionless follow the stars
only to be blinded by the sun
here’s to you
for every fucking time I fell
and dragged you down with me while you held on for dear life
for every fucking mistake
for every fucking tear that I took from you
from those trustworthy eyes, filled with fear and love
spilling from your damaged heart down your cheek
I promised I’d put it back together
I promised I’d change
I promised no more empty promises
that was the last time I saw you
and I can assure you
karma’s a bitch
faint music shimmered into existence
the sound stumbling up the stairs
trickling in through the windows
a familiar and foreign melody
it sounded hopeful
the hope that rises out of grief
the rebirth after decay
a symphony spilling onto reality
and within the noise lied meaning
lied answers
the music grew louder
and louder
it became deafening, shaking the foundations that had laid since the beginning
and yet it was ignored
for we were too overstimulated by the lies
and too cautious to accept the truth
wicked words wielded carefully
upon a hill overlooking the world
they were draining your will
draining your strength
release us, they pleaded
you held on tighter
you saw their consequences in your dreams
each syllable a meteor
each sentence, an atom bomb
you alone must hold them back
but they scratch at your lips
scream at your consciousness
they will devour you soon
but you will take them with you
a cry for help, unheard
step over the bodies
there’s no time
save yourself, before you trip
don’t look down
ignore the screams, and move on
for once you hit the bottom
no one is coming for you
there’s no escape
no hope
no light
no life
not down there
not for us
so look ahead
and keep moving
you found me on the road
a wandering stray, weighed down by the past
you took me in
made me yours
and nursed me back to health
I smiled and watched yours fade
at first you grew distant
then you became angry
and soon, you began ripping off the bandages you had so delicately placed
tearing the stitches out
only to sow them back in again and again
I wasn’t your lover
I was your patient
romanticizing the dark
drastic measures
for minor issues
restless nights
and drowsy days
caustic thoughts
and paradoxical behavior
take your pills
take a breath
they told you that would help
just give it another week
resonating
echoing off of concrete
you heard it from upstairs
and came down to inspect
the smoke thick
the rubble mountainous
you stood, blinded
until the air began swirling around you
and light of a new color protruded from the wreckage
your arm timidly moved forward
your feet locked into place
so close to becoming whole
you weren’t sure what would happen
you only understood that this was your chance
a flash
you began rising
and you never ceased
a better place for everyone