turn to me
see through these eyes
into the part of me
that has lain dormant
for so
very
long
it hides itself well
but I’m asking you
pleading
to not give up
rhetorical solipsism
turn to me
see through these eyes
into the part of me
that has lain dormant
for so
very
long
it hides itself well
but I’m asking you
pleading
to not give up
crystal bottles gleam above the heads of the lonely
caustic company for forgotten faces and hollow hearts
just for the night, the endless night that’s still somehow wasting away
chaos is the sculptor of beauty
the glistening snow hiding cracks in the asphalt
I tried to find my way home
but everything looked different
memories flood to me every morning
they’re gone by sundown
a life of fleeting moments to try and hold on to
I used to be glad I had a poor memory
but now I don’t want to forget you
a forgotten pathway, hidden by foliage
a damaged synapse, mended by emerald eyes
“where has the time gone?”
down the drain alongside assortments of pills and drops of blood
the past is bleak, yet the future is blinding
bask in the light but be mindful of the shadows
the directionless follow the stars
only to be blinded by the sun
I used to think I’d get better
I don’t think much anymore
A mobile mannequin
A missing identity
Aimless ambling atop broken glass
Anesthetize your psyche
It will keep you safe
here’s to you
for every fucking time I fell
and dragged you down with me while you held on for dear life
for every fucking mistake
for every fucking tear that I took from you
from those trustworthy eyes, filled with fear and love
spilling from your damaged heart down your cheek
I promised I’d put it back together
I promised I’d change
I promised no more empty promises
that was the last time I saw you
and I can assure you
karma’s a bitch
faint music shimmered into existence
the sound stumbling up the stairs
trickling in through the windows
a familiar and foreign melody
it sounded hopeful
the hope that rises out of grief
the rebirth after decay
a symphony spilling onto reality
and within the noise lied meaning
lied answers
the music grew louder
and louder
it became deafening, shaking the foundations that had laid since the beginning
and yet it was ignored
for we were too overstimulated by the lies
and too cautious to accept the truth
wicked words wielded carefully
upon a hill overlooking the world
they were draining your will
draining your strength
release us, they pleaded
you held on tighter
you saw their consequences in your dreams
each syllable a meteor
each sentence, an atom bomb
you alone must hold them back
but they scratch at your lips
scream at your consciousness
they will devour you soon
but you will take them with you
a cry for help, unheard
step over the bodies
there’s no time
save yourself, before you trip
don’t look down
ignore the screams, and move on
for once you hit the bottom
no one is coming for you
there’s no escape
no hope
no light
no life
not down there
not for us
so look ahead
and keep moving